Today is my twin boys' 6th birthday. For most parents, this is a joyous occasion, filled with presents, birthday cake, smiles and laughter. But for me, Today is filled with all of that and more. Today will also be filled with grief, longing, and sadness over missing the son that should be here celebrating with… Continue reading Happy Birthday
It has been 2,185 days since we first saw Joey's beautiful face. 2,185 days since we heard the tiny squeak of his first breath. 2,185 days since the nurse tearfully told us that she was not able to intubate him. It has been 2,185 days since we watched Jack be rushed to the NICU within… Continue reading 2,185 Days
A letter to my son in Heaven.
Finding balance in my life right now is hard. I think most people can relate. But then there are others that are just going all in, one way or another, on something they find to be their best coping mechanism. I have some friends that are training for marathons in their down time (my husband),… Continue reading Balance
I used to think that my anxiety was at it’s worst in certain social situations. In large crowds, among people I didn’t know, going places I was unfamiliar with. In the last few weeks, I have come to find that it is actually situations that are outside of my control that cause my anxiety to… Continue reading Struggling